Full Circle

It’s been many years since I accidentally stumbled onto a latex fetish site that I can’t remember how long this love affair with latex has been going on, but it’s probably 7-10 years.

After the initial find and then the subsequent purchases (I’m never one to rush things), I would parade around my bedroom in it, either for my own pleasure in how it made me feel and turned me on or for my husband who loved seeing me in it.

A few years ago I wanted to experience the fun of latex to latex. Another who was into it just as much as I am. Chats on fetlife and twitter did not bring anyone forward…there were mutual conversations of the love of it or compliments on how it suited me but nothing more. Not at the level I loved it, the hood wearing, head to toe alter ego feeling.

The spring of 2017 a female friend I’d met via others mentioned she had a friend who was into latex. I thought no more of it. Then suddenly two months ago, she asked if I’d like to be introduced via a chat app to them. I would….

What has transpired is that rare thing where you match kink for kink, they also own all the latex, all the toys and yet if you past them in the street you wouldn’t think twice.

That’s what I love, hidden layers. The many people I’ve seen at say a fetish market or club that screams “I’m different, I’m kinky etc”, was not what I was looking for. In fact, I’d stopped even thinking it would happen.

A month after we chatted, I was invited for coffee. I went thinking it was just that and preparing myself for someone who was very weird or very old (or both). Call it self protection, so I wasn’t disappointed.

What transpired was in fact someone who couldn’t be further from that. Just 15 days older than myself, they got all the generation quips, jokes and comments on chat.

I’m a tall girl and height for me is a turn on. At 6’3” that was the first obvious plus, then the physique, a body that goes to the gym daily without being pumped, looked after so looks great in latex.

We chatted for ages and clearly clicked. Whilst I was thinking it was time to go, I was unexpectedly asked would I like to play. I surprised myself by instantly saying I would (1st meets are socials and I always see what someone looks like before meeting them, clearly all the rules were going out the window this time).

When I got upstairs latex stockings were revealed under jeans. A total surprise that still makes me smile when I think about it. A pussy pump was attached to me, much kissing and general getting to explore each other happened.

I left that day, with the biggest smile on my face. Asked if I’d like to meet again, there was no hesitations in a resounding yes.

The next time was us fully clad in latex. The one after a slightly different experience and more. It just gets better and better. We’ve agreed that it’s incredibly rare to find that right person you click with, we can’t believe our luck.

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Struggling

Today my mood is reflective of what’s been and where I am now. I feel emotional, the loss of my daughter, the silence is deafening and the tears are so close to the surface. As I write this they tumble and crash.

Maybe tomorrow will bring light.

Mondays 

I wake to find him wrapped around me, we drift back in unison, breathing in sync, in a half conscious state he uncurls himself from me and moves downward parting my legs.

I feel his warm breathe followed by his tongue lapping at me, slow soft licks then plunging deep into me. My half conscious state laid back, eyes closed I feel him.

He instructs me on to my side and enters me, pushing deeper, faster, the noise of wetness and heavy panting as we get faster.

I’m suddenly aware of his thumb pushing deep into my arse, I push my hips backward wanting more, I reach around to feel his wide girth inside me as he squeezes my right nipple. 

As he climaxes he whispers in my ear “Tea?”

I like Mondays. 

The Beginning of Swinging 

When I joined Twitter, I could never foresee what would happen in terms of opening Pandora’s Box. 

Latex evolved to female attraction to swinging. A big leap? I’m not sure if there is a link. For a long time I felt I was in two camps with regards to kink v swinging. 

What started with seeing a female in a latex dress who was a real person, followed an incredible journey over the following months.

Flirting initially for a few months via images, words and fantastic flattering sub tweets to the eventual meeting for a drink and clearly we clicked. I’d never experienced this before. That afternoon whilst sat in a gay bar sipping a cocktail she asked if I’d like to kiss her. 

I very much wanted to, with the help of alcohol to hide my nerves & embarrassment we did.

Initially we were to meet alone in a hotel one night but after a conversation with my husband & knowing they both swung, I asked if he would like to come with me to their house. He said he would (which did surprise me). 

We went along with him thinking he might only be watching. How very wrong he was.

We had such a good evening in terms of a great first. We understand that many have not had good firsts or indeed seconds. This was not the case & I think if it had been bad we wouldn’t have continued down this path. 

A social with great food, wine, laughs ensured the evening started well. After dinner we ventured into the living room where my new friend sat down very close to me. 

A photo was taken of us kissing. Then suddenly after a few minutes my husband asked if we can kiss again & then asked for my dress to be unzipped. 

What followed was an experience I’ll never ever forget. I laid on the floor and had my underwear removed, where upon I was kissed from mouth downward. 

There was this silence, I could almost imagine the men sipping cognac and smoking cigars. A few comments were made by her husband as we then swapped. 

I kissed her, then moved slowly downward. This was now feeling like the most natural thing in the world and I was loving it. 

Then we asked if the men would like to join in, without hesitation they said yes and started to undress. The three of them all gave me attention. I was in a moment of bliss enjoying not only another female but also the added experience of three mouths & pairs of hands. We then turned our attentions to her for the same experience.

We then swapped partners and in between chat, wine and lots of laughs the evening was suddenly over, it was the early hours and it had flown. 

The next morning we woke with a smile and laid in bed chatting over the night before and all the unexpected feelings of what turned us on and agreed we would love to do it again and soon.

As for my first “girlfriend” we are still in touch, still chat and still make each other smile.

If you are thinking about venturing into this as a couple I would say there are lots of things to consider but highly recommend it as once you’ve done it, it’s very addictive. 

Facts about me 

1. I’d only had sex with 1 person up to the age of 43 (& he I).

2. We were together over 3 years before we had sex

3. We were a two for 15 years before we had a child

4. I arranged a threesome for his big birthday ~ we loved it

5. We’ve swung for 3 years

6. I realised I was Bi from my love of latex & joining Twitter 4 years ago

7. I’ve met so many good people from here (& some not so good)

8. I love meeting new people & enjoying others open mindedness

9. I realised I’m less a swinger & more Poly

10. How I look/act is deceiving

11. I’ve fallen in love with people here. I believe you can love others, like you do your friends, children, partner. A connection is that.

12. After my account of 35k followers, I called it a day when my 17 year old told me had known about it for 3 years & left home (She’s back)

13. I’ve fallen on dark times here from frienemies. The intrigue that turns to envy at my freedom. But the good have outweighed the bad.

14. The two people I grew closest to here, we don’t follow each other but still chat. Leaving it on a good note puts your demons to rest.

15. I married into a family where nobody is separated/divorced. That’s 8 families with 24 of us.

16. I’ve had a 3,4,5,6 some in last 3 yrs.

17. I spent my first all night Girl on Girl at the Park Plaza Hotel & woke to the best view (all round!)

18. I’m terribly loyal.

19. Advice on twitter: never get involved with others disputes. It’s not your business & there’s always more than one side to the story.

20. I hope to spend another 32 years with @Red_Hand_Gang, at least. He’s my rock & I ❤ him.

My Twitter Journey

  Even now I have friends who say “I don’t get Twitter” & I just smile & nod. For 9 months I tried the vanilla route everyday & it just didn’t really inspire me very much.
Then one day an American man (who I still chat to) followed my account & I had to message him & ask him why as his was clearly a kinky account.
Twitter suggests by similar accounts & by my following a mutual account had lead him to me. We conversed ad-hoc until my husband suggested I set up an alternative kinky account.
I would never have imagined in my wildest dreams where this would lead to & the discoveries it unlocked in my mind but also in real life. 
So in May 2013 I set up @sub_liminal_
This account was purely for me to enjoy & post latex & fantasy images. I think I got lucky in who I found to initially follow, many “real” accounts with similar interests & kinks.

I soon realised that women looked amazing in latex & with this came my first bi-curious thoughts I’d ever had.
I found a group where we bounced tweets off each other (still do but under group DM now). I found people gravitated towards our banter & so I unlocked my account so images could be re-tweeted. The initial buzz of a very quick follower growth which was flattering for a while was not my reason for my account though.
10 months later I set up my first single & group meet on the same day in London. Being naive I didn’t realise that all those women sat round for dinner were bi/curious. I had my first female kiss that day & this lead on to us as a couple discovering swinging.
A month later we experienced our first soft swap evening, which quickly lead on to full swap two months after that at our first swinging club party.
In total I have gone on to meet 53 people from Twitter & these meets have ranged from social, kisses, dancing, clubs, pubs, hotels & play in their house/our house. 
Some have been a one off meet & others have progressed to more.
The journey has been amazing, exhilarating but with that comes huge highs & deep lows. Twitter did not prepare me for some of the feelings I’ve encountered in the last two years. 
Up to this point, I’ve always had a stable, controlled life. A life long partner of 30 years. I’m a strong minded, driven female, self employed who set my business up from nothing with a two year old & steely determination. Often I’ve been told I think like a male which I’m inclined to agree with to a certain extent. So what looking back has it taught me?

The Good Bits: Obviously the high. I am lucky that I’m in a relationship with much freedom (however there are still rules to adhere to). With him by my side, I am the person I am today, no doubt about that. He gives me my strength.
Meeting new people from here has been fantastic. I’ve met some great people, some great friends who I continue to chat with & meet up with. 
The new experiences which are ever evolving & changing are something I embrace & enjoy. I’ve lived out some fantasies & dreams. Initially virtually & then in reality. 

The Sad Bits: Like life you can’t sail through it expecting it all to be positive. I don’t think I realised how many vulnerable, complex or sad people there were till I really got into Twitter. It also has highlighted my own moods more than ever before in my life. 
My biggest bug bear is people who talk lots and don’t really mean what they say. It’s a regular pattern here so I’ve realised that it’s my issue to not take their words or suggestions to heart anymore as it just means they are different to me. 
With meeting so many, some I’ve stayed in touch with ad-hoc & these are on-going now. The ones where I’ve met them more than once, there was a stronger connection, some have fallen by the way side. But this, like anything in life is a normal natural progression because we change & evolve. With the strongest connections it’s been hard to let go & I miss them with the one off meets, it was fun and I’ve been “c’est la vie” about it. 

Summary: Would I change this journey? Absolutely not, it’s made me who I am today with all the ups & downs. There is still so much I want to go on to do & experience & that never stops, it shouldn’t for any of us.